If my eyes can talk what would they say? The world is unfair or is my life so plain. I reckon that they'll speak of the good times, the lovely hours with my beloved, the laughter that filled the air and the spikes we ran into.
I'm laying in bed tired of how negative I've been the past few months! It have strongly effected my life in many ways. I the way I approach people have changed and my loved ones trying to tightly pull me back to the sunshine! I talk like as if I'm an addict but the truth is that I'm depressed. Its very hard to admit it but its been way over due to talk about it. Last night I had a serious talk over dinner that kept me all night throwing up! my older brother and I talked at dinner about how of a mystery man I've became! Well, at least I'm not buried in secrets. All what's in me is the observation of others. I get highly effected with my surrounding and especially with the ones I love and miss. It seem that my heart is in europe and I can't wait to see it back safe. Love is my backbone if I ruin it I might be paralysed for ever. So what can I do to detach myself? Is it gonna be terminate or will she be safe! I wonder cos those minutes are burning me. I still do talk in mystery but one day I hope to write a book about it.