Good morning Beautiful,
I had a dream about you last night and it was beautiful, absolutely beautiful!! I dreamt I was there with you but you were walking away so I called out to you but you did not hear me so I called again, still you did not hear me. I saw you go into a store, you were with a friend so I waited clutching my tummy, I have no idea what was in my it, butterflies I think? Moments later you came out and my heart raced as you walked past me shooting a quick glance my way but carrying on, then almost instantly you turned and stared right at me, bright eyed with a look of shock, confusion and yet happiness perhaps written across your glowing face. It felt as though an eternity was compacted into a mere few seconds. My heart skipped a beat while I muttered out the words "I'm here, it's me". Having only known you in my dreams and only recently over the last few years exchanged love and soul with you I really wasn't sure what to say then with warming eyes and a big smile I embraced you in me, a welcoming and almost loving embrace settling my stomach and returning my heartbeat to a normal pace. We wandered slowly over to my car, and no further words were exchanged for we were both just so happy to be in one another's presence finally. You leaned so casually against the car as I stood nervously for a while, my whole body was acting odd the whole ride. We spoke for a few minutes about which, so insignificant, I cannot recall as I was brain washed by this beautiful Woman next to me holding my shivering hand. With all the excitement before I knew it, we had arrived at my place where I invited you in and showed you to my room. I lay down on my bed propped up by a stack of pillows while you stood awkwardly on the other side of my room. I tapped the bed suggestively, inviting you to come lay next to me. I rearranged some of the pillows and then you lay down I was fearing that you may feel my heart beat once again picking up its pace. My stomach danced around like a thousand butterflies after breaking out of their cocoons and now learning to fly. You nestled into me with your head on my chest while I pulled my arms around you and held you tight against me. Your body was so warm. I could hear your heart beating as fast as mine was, beating in unison, it felt so FIRING! With our legs entwined, embracing one another it felt right, so glorious, that is how love is supposed to be.
You and I.
Together.
We talked for a while, still in each others arms, as the tension! tension of a good kind built. The emotions in the both of us grew stronger, we moved together, rocking to the beat of our hearts that were still racing, still in this magical rhythm. Pumping the hot blood coursing through our veins, what a wonderful feeling love is! is this love I wondered? Is this love that I am feeling? I have never felt anything like this before, it is enough to erase all doubts, fears and anything that may stand in my way. Anything of which may threaten, all uncertainties, gone, to be no more. Yes, I am in love, this is love that I am feeling. I am full of the joyous wonders of the universe and in this moment and all others for the rest of eternity.
Still! waking up from this beautiful dream! Well, it hurts to find out that what you wanted does match what you dreamed it would be but somehow it got sour and there is no way of repair. Things sometime are too hard to fix even if you try your best its still might not be good enough. Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? I truly believe that love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will to go for it, they soon become inevitable and before you know it you're living it. It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting. Before a dream is realized, the world tests us on everything that we learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, as well as acing the things we worked so hard to know as we have moved toward that dream we so badly want. That's the point at which I give up..........
Told my heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of search is a second's encounter with my dream.
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